Take A Willing Step [Seer Crawl day 38]

Morsel - Waterfall Dreams copy

waterfall dreams, a detail and crossover from today’s studio melange post

Your thought to ponder for today: a slow read through THE SEER. Day 38. [all material from the book appears in italics]:

 

25.

I was now on a journey within my own story.

During our last chat Virgil told me that change is often counter-intuitive. For instance, sometimes you must slow down to be more efficient. For me, he said that I needed to work on my “being” if I ever wanted to succeed in my “doing.”

I am now seeing the roles I choose. I am discovering the agenda beneath each role. I see what I need and what I want. I see when I manipulate. I see where I place limits on myself. I see where I remove them. I’m learning to recognize my investments.

Early in our work together it was my habit to get angry after my chats with Virgil. I wanted answers! I wanted to understand. The last thing I wanted was to “not know” what I was doing. My anger revealed my judgments. “Not knowing” made me uncomfortable. “Not knowing” felt vulnerable, exposed. I got angry because I told myself the story that Virgil was responsible for my discomfort. He was the cause, not me. It was easier to blame him than it was to own my feelings.

When I learned to suspend my judgments I saw why I was so angry. For me, to know is like armor; “knowing” is my protection. I’ve never really innovated because I’ve never willingly stepped into the unknown. I was guarded against ever stepping into discomfort so I was guarded against learning, growing, seeing, innovating, and creating. Virgil exposed the truth: I do not know.

information on coaching & workshops

 

www.davidrobinsoncreative.com

 

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